A person who is very important to me thanked me for being such a great friend today, and also told me to look toward the future, look into getting my Phd, and that I will do great things – not to let now get in the way of the future.
And as I was sitting coloring my sun visor for my car (it’s finished and beautiful), I was thinking over this. I remember my 5th grade teacher, Mr. Prunty, writing in my yearbook that I was going to accomplish great things, and he would keep an eye out for my name in the future. While he may have wrote this for countless kids – several other teachers told me the same throughout my school career. And I have always wanted to change the world.
The issue is, how? One of my greatest passions is education. I have dreams of the educational world I want my son to grow up in. However, it often seems any way of changing our current education system lies in politics – A world I never had much desire to enter.
I admitted to myself this evening, that I also become frightened of stepping out of my box, and doing something new. I’m used to the things I’m good at and I know what those are (especially school). So thinking about politics, or higher up roles in education tends to scare me. Hence one of the reasons I went back for a second masters in Leadership – it is not just that I could not decide what to get a Phd or EdD in, it is also that I know I need to improve those skills.
So over the next year, I hope to challenge myself. I want to step outside my box, work on my leading skills, and also do new things. I want to challenge the status quo.
I also want to write. Two of my awesome friends have been bugging me about this later. So often I say that I just don’t have the time. And it’s really not true. I just do not make the time. I think it because I am scared to death that I will actually finish something and face rejection at every angle – because I have before. Plus, I’m just lazy when I get home from work.
Here is to a year of challenges and goals. Wish me luck. And keep me accountable. 🙂